I initially got back on here and was ready to wipe out everything and start from scratch. I was going to fill it with exciting new layouts and try to forget the fact that I’ve left this neglected since the first of the year.
But my goal with this blog was to be real, and this is real.
Sometimes, life gets in the way.
Whether you want it to or not, it does. Real is the fact that I’m a mom. I’m about to start a full time job. I’m in the midst of an adoption that is hitting roadblock after roadblock. Real is forgetting about yourself to put your family first. It’s not right, but it’s real. It’s raw. It’s me. So this is a new start, and I haven’t given up yet. I’m going to see today as a new day and just keep moving forward.
My biggest problem is setting my sights way too high. I set unrealistic expectations for myself, and put those expectations on an even more unrealistic timeline. I expect way too much from myself. If there were more hours in the day, it’d be possible. But there are only 24 hours, so this is what I need to deal with.
But this is something us as moms do. We create a list of 100 things that need to get done. We’ll get 75 things checked off, but since we didn’t finish it entirely it means we’ve failed. When we talk to other moms, we tell them how crazy it is to think that way. But we ignore that little voice in our own head, because SHE’S a supermom and we’re just a failure. Try to look at yourself from the outside before berating yourself.
I can’t give up.
So from here, this is just day 1. I’m sure there will be several failures from here on out. There are going to be times where I’ve failed and I’m going to mess up. But as long as I keep going, I never really failed.
So, since tomorrow is day 1, what does that mean? Day 1 of what?
Well, for starters, I’m finally going to test out the #BootyGainz program I’ve been working on for well over a year. I’m hoping it will be a 21 day program that will cause a noticeable, significant difference in your behind. My plan is to take a picture every day and document how I feel. I want to share the ups, the downs, and hopefully the notable raising my hind quarters.
And I’m going to go back to drinking 16 cups of water a day. I felt so great doing that, I need to just suck it up and drink it down. Hydration is so important and I’m so darn bloated because of it.
I’ve just got to find that motivation again.
And starting either this weekend or early next week, my husband and I are going to starting our newest fundraiser and advocacy event – 5000 Miles to the Babies. Our kids are in Eastern Europe, roughly 5,000 miles away. So since we can’t get there right now, we’re going to walk it. We’re each going to take 2,500 miles and walk it. We haven’t decided on the actual timeline of it yet, but we’re going to put effort into it. But that’s going to push us to get cardio in every day.
I want to start a video blog. I want to document my journey to lose weight, get in shape, and to live naturally. Besides, I’ve always wanted to be a comedian, and this is the real shot that I have. I’m sure you’ll all love laughing at me.
So many goals, so little time.
Well, it’s on to researching ingredients and unnecessary fitness routines.
I’ve put over 10 years of research into this part of my life, and I’ve spent the last five years wishing I’d apply it to my life more. So from here on out, I’m going to.
So prepare to have your mind blown, your sides sore from laughing, and the desire to DIY everything.
Look out world, here I come.